hmm.. kind of yes.. may be ..may be not..
Some people feel I am jobless now...may be.. may be not..
Jobless .. hmm....yes I am jobless now in that I am not earning anything now.
I have worked for 15 years and now I am without a job, so may be that can be called as I am retired or something if I may say :-P from my professional work.
yea.. may be you can call it a paradigm shift!!
I have offered help to the maximum to all my friends, sometimes even to the verge of being in debt for them. Some feel so happy for me that they feel as if I have taken up the entire quota of doing good.. may be..may be not!
Some are working in NHS,
Some are good authors now,
I could educate 75 girl children from 1st Std till 5th Std and from June 2018, I have stopped bcoz these children are adopted by good people and they are in secure hands.
I try to have regularly six-monthly visits to 5 orphanages, 3 old age homes, 2 mentally retarded homes, 1 Burns Care
I have been always focussed on what I want in terms of goals and I have worked hard towards it and have achieved it too. I have always worked with integrity and worked truly even when no one used to supervise my work.
I have always lived for others, sacrificed my individuality for raising up my kids in a secure and happy environment. Most of the times I cry alone bcoz I don't want my kids to see and feel my pain.
Some things I missed in my life and I still do miss..I want someone to say I love you, I need you, you are my everything, I cant live without you ... but then I think is it too much that I am asking for or may be thats how my life is meant to be. They say marriages are made in heaven, I know.. its not true at all..
I am a Leo but my fav animal is Wolf and the following quote I always remember and I have fed the good wolf more but I do confess sometimes I have fed the bad wolf too!!!
So, now I want to live life for myself. Yea, 10 years I want to live for myself.
I dont want to go out and work.
I dont want to slog like a dog in housework.
I dont want to have my body in pain always.
I want to breathe. I want to be free.
I dont want to be social.
I dont want to be online all the time.
I dont want to be pushed now...
I just want to pursue my passion of writing ( yea I heard... it does not pay well) and web series production.
So, this is my last post in this blog...Always remember to leave a mark in this world so that even after you die, you leave a legacy to follow. I will leave a legacy of understanding, a legacy of helping selflessly, a legacy of true love and care...for sure.. How about u????